The final weeks before I was due, Natalia came over to our home and spent hours with us – talking about our upcoming birth, any fear and joy we had and going over different labor positions. So much peace arose out of those visits. Looking back on my labor, I don’t even want to try to imagine it without Natalia’s support.
Our precious daughter came after a couple sleepless nights. The first night I was going in and out of sleep as very mild contractions started. The next day was lovely and spent staying busy; my husband and I almost not believing that this was it! Our daughter was coming! Natalia came over at about 1AM when my contractions were more intense but I still wanted to chat in between.
One of the biggest things I appreciated about Natalia was her sensitivity. It was as if she saw how I was flowing and jumped in at the exact same speed; with the greatest care and tenderness. When I was chatty, she laughed and joked with me (oh, her sense of humor is amazing – how much that helps!!!: ) . As the night progressed, I started to get very tired and started to lie down in between contractions. She stopped chatting and all of a sudden there were tea light candles everywhere, she had built me a “nest” of blankets and pillows and soft music was playing. When I got up in between contractions to sway, she was right there applying the exact right pressure. When I wanted to be alone she didn't follow me into another room. And when my husband woke up from his nap and became my main supporter, it was as if she wasn't there anymore, quietly fading into the background. She helped my husband immensely. She gently reminded him to take nourishment to keep his strength up and she helped him immensely with assuring him with what my body was doing and how he was helping me.
As transition came and I started to doubt my ability to birth my baby, Natalia was ever supportive… assuring, strong, gentle and confident in me and my body’s design. She didn't even flinch when I bit her hand (hard I’m afraid!) during one of my last contractions! I don’t even know where she found our camera but she filmed that moment of awe when our baby entered the world. We treasure that video and those pictures she took. As we were bonding with our baby, without us asking her, she cooked up an incredible and nourishing meal with the ingredients she found in our cupboard. She really did work so incredibly hard all night long and into the next day; and with such a gentleness and sweet spirit about her.
Two weeks later, she brought over some food and helped me process the incredible gift of that birth. I still tear up thinking about all that Natalia was for us during the tender, intense, beautiful process of birth. I am and will forever be so thankful that SHE was our doula!